brain[y]

2007-06-03T03:28:00.000+08:00

whatever lies ahead, i hope i hold on.

2007-03-11T17:12:00.000+08:00

let me be emo. issit OKAY with you.
lalalalala.
pls la.
brainy, pls GROW UP.

brainy.

2007-02-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

if there're better words to express how much "i hate you".
I will throw THEM at you. you know how much i want you to @#$%^&*.

Arghhhhhhhhh.

brainy.
(devil is workin in me againn. when can this be over. i need a relief from all these. i just wan my deserved BREAK. can u stop it. u have tortured me for years. n i had enough.)

2007-02-08T15:55:00.000+08:00

start now!

i should be facing it now.
i should be doing it now.
start now.
i'm going off to do it now.

NOW!
brainy

LEAVE me alone.

2007-02-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

i'm totally PISSED.
u noe why. my dear "so-called" friends.
first and last time.

LEAVE me alone.
i may flare up any moment.
when i do so, dun blame me.
you are to blame.
i'm pissed. i repeat.

i DIDNT. i NEVER.

2007-01-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

i DIDNT. i NEVER.
i didnt ask more then what u can give.
its just sincerity i'm searchin for.
i NEVER, will NEVER do tt.
I'm bored. pple plS entertain me.
TALK to me.

i'm a loner.
JUST Leave me alone.

am i contradictin myself.
i think i am.
=)
i like this ambiguity.
u noe y?
bcox only pple who truly understands me know what exactly i am talkin abt.
even when silence comes in. they ("they", "he", "she", WHATEVER) STILL noe.

Brainy

tell me abt it.

2006-09-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

on a scale of 10. tell me how much u want it.

ELEVEN.

i saw this on a show.
cool right.

2006-08-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

come on brain[y].

GET ON your Toes!!

gOOd NEWS.

2006-08-05T12:51:00.000+08:00

GooD newS. the blood is gone. Hurray.

well, i still duno the cause cox i didnt see the docter. but i def know tt that period of time really didnt feel good AT ALL. well, thanks to friends who constanly showed concerned for me. thanks. u noe who u are. :)

hmm. well, i duno if it's a false alarm but i'm more health conscious now. last time, i hate to drink plain water. of course, now, i still HATE. but... haha. i drink more of tt now. previously i can drink only less than 2 cups per day. ha. now, i drink by BOTTLES. so proud of myself.

that's all.

u def wont noe how it feels like

2006-07-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

while u are enjoying that sweetness. i'm here suffering in pain. u noe what i'm driving at. am i allowed to breathe. pls.

i have this unhappiness in me. who can i share it with. i dare nt share. i'm afraid pple may just feel irritated with my ramblings. this is TOTALLY unbearable.

a whole new set og problems apart from those whole lot i had arised recently. well, i havent told may yet. after this entry, some will noe. i dun wana keep it anymore. ok. my urine has blood. yes blood. again. i have been coughin like nuts. if anything's happening to me, just let me get some terminal disease. i'm feelin really terrible now. physically, mentally n emotionally.

it's tiring. i'm nt a hypocrite. but i do act, yesh ACT strong in front. because i dun wan to be a "loser". call me childish, call me stubborn. i dun care anymore. i just needed to let it out. i wan to be healthy, happy. when can i be AGAIN.
:(

2006-07-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

right now. i'm super pissed. mailto:!@#$%^&*()!@#$%!@#$%^&^%$#@!#$%

THIS totally is freakin me OFF. seriously. irritated by "some pple". how insensitive! well, nt say i bhb, i have tried to give in n accept ur idiotic possessiveness. so shut ur ASS up n stop acting as though ur the the KING. KING of my foot. ur messages just freak me up n i just hate u to the core. to tell u the truth, i have been trying nt to hate u. but each day ur msgs just turn me off. i duno how to tell u tt u are just ****y. frommmm now onwards until i recover from post-pissed sickness, i'll NOT reply ur msg. NEVER. mayb i'll b nice to only SELECTIVELY reply. u noe who u are n shut ur crap up now.

pissed brain[y]. do NT touch brain[y]. hate.

2006-07-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

a sOng without a sOUL ; for you

heard tt mid years were seriously horrible. didnt exactly get bck all the papers. anyways, Ms Lai, simply has this ability to make u feel bad. we are meridian's disgrace. [tears] is this just to agitate us to push harder? have we nt worked hard enuff. S. (shall nt attempt to use the f word.)

really terrible. can almost hear everyone chattering abt mid years this and tt this and tt. F graders. many. "i cant count with my fingers the no. of pple who unfortunately has ZERO for their essays" said Ms Wang, Bio teacher. thank God i survived. whatever. (i'm just prayin i dun have one. most importantly, i have NONE for A levels.)

_In the words of ms choo hung yi, "What's wrong with a meridian going to Harvard?" really. doubt it. [tears]

on the very rainy day, we stood there. no where to go.

2006-07-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

you left me standing here. alone.

i'll nv forget it. "i can be your teddy bear, your clouds" let me be your standing ground.

ha. went shpin. bought a bag n belt. heh heh. pepper lunch for dinner was nice. just lost my vloice. seriously. now gt low n sexy voice. well, sexy is subjective. hmmm. but weirdly, i like this voice. wa.

2006-07-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

sleep. sleep. i slept the whole day.

it's has become my 24 hrs duty. how i wish sleep is death. so tt i can choose as n when to come to this world. when the world is beautiful, i'll open my eyes. when it's so ugly n I HATE IT, i 'll just remain in my sleep of death.

This world is so horrible. so scary. u can feel high at a moment. blessed. full of bliss. n at another moment, it can be only s few seconds or minutes, u just feel down. everything is just against u. well. what is this. why are we put to suffer this.

_i need it out of my mind.

;i need a break from sch, n this world. break free from all this shit. hai.

another day has gone. well. i still have numerous days b4 365th day.

"sometimes i drive so fast, just to feel the danger."

evolved!

2006-07-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

evolution. ah. random! well. today, church. great revival. caught up with friends.

hey. sry for my sad n bleh posts on brain[y]'s webby k. well, i had to go accordin to my emotions. well. that accounts for female's moodswings?

hey hey. i had special infactuation with some songs these few days. happy songs. sad songs are nv meant for happy pple. but. but. happy songs are there, meant for sad pple.
does it sound right n logical?? yes right. haha. it was a random thought. haha

tc pple.

life isnt easy.

2006-06-30T15:42:00.000+08:00

bio is done. yeah.

life isnt easy without u. memories. as much as i wan it erased, it cant be done. i have faith. time will do tt. for the time being. i will still hold on.

3 years ago, we met as friends. 2 years lata. u sent me this. 3 years lata. i still have it in my mail. i didnt tell u how much those simple mails meant to me.

Survey about U!!!
My name: leticia peh xyn yen
Where did we meet?: andy's tuiton centre
How long have you known me?: hmm.....2 years like tt???
How well do you know me?: quite well i think
Do I believe in God?: maybe...dunno leh
When you first saw me what was your impression : veri funny and lame(",)
My age?: 15
Birthday? 7 November 1988
Color hair?: black Color
eyes?: dunno.... never stared at ur eyes be4
Am I tall or short or average? eh.... dunno wat to say le.... average height??
Do I have any siblings?: yah.... two brother 1 sis
Phone no. 90664033
Address. somewhere opp my house on the 11th level
(If opposite sex) Have you ever had a crush on me?: eh..... keep to my self
(If same sex) Have you ever been jealous of me? ...... no... cos u lesbian
Who do I like?: ..............no comments
What's one of my favorite things to do? listening to music???
favourite colour(s): RED
best pals? chuan yan.... wan ying.... wonder if i'm 1
Do you remember one of the1st things I said 2 u?: dunno ...i think its.. wats ur no.
Favourite fruits: dunno
What's your funniest memory of me?: lots la...too many to sae out le
What is the best feature about me?: eh...eh.....everything la nice and kind or cruel and evil? nice n kind
What is my worst feature?: eh..... nothing??
Do you look up or down on me...as a person?: look up
Am I shy or outgoing?: outgoing
Can you picture me dancin'?: nope
Can you picture me rollin'?: yes
Would you say I am funny?: ALWAYS
Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules? rebel la
What am, I best at?: lots of things... studying... cracking lame jokes...
Would you consider me a friend?: YESH!!
Have you ever seen me cry?: maybe
If there were 1 nickname for me what would it be?: lesbian
What is your favorite thing to do with me?: msg and hang out with u
Have I ever been there for you?: yah.... always
How'd u rate me as a friend?: best friend..a true friend
Are you close to me?: maybe...i dunno la
Am I fun to be with?: yesh
Am I smart?: yesh
Name one way that I have changed your life or made an impact in it.: u haved changed me in many ways.... u bring me happiness.... thanz

A True Friend is...
Someone whom you trust Someone who Understands you
Someone you confide in Someone who don't compete with you in Studies
Someone who helps you out when you are in trouble Someone who is always there beside you
That's my ideal Friend...

My Thoughts...
Gotta accept the fact that everyone is Different
People are of different character and thoughts (That's what make Everyone Special!)
So never hate anyone for whatever thing that they do
Try putting yourself into their shoes
And you'll understand how they feel & think
Having only Friends & no foes will definately make your Life more Perfect & Enjoyable Trust me...

Regrets...
I chose that path
I made that choice
There's no turning back I have to live with it...

hey. that's for me.

2006-06-29T17:59:00.000+08:00

Walking down memory lane today will be a distraction exercise. Live in the moment.

i got this for myself. scoprio. :)

it's almost there!

2006-06-29T17:17:00.000+08:00

cool. chem papers are over. a ClosEr step to a levels. a closer step to good results. [well, i'm tryin to be optimistic:)] steady. brain[y] is trying hard to strive n move on in life. please help her. she's not as tough as u all think she is. she's needs emotional support, shoulders to cry on when bad things happen. yesh. brain[y] sincerely thank all who SINCERELY cares for her.

sentosa. i'll b there. wait for me.

; inspirations from music:
i would spend my life in this sweet surrender. - don't wana miss a thing.

pigs WiLL fly.

2006-06-28T02:44:00.000+08:00

piGs will fly. my papers were horrible plus terrible. all. bio 1 & 2. chem 3. math 1. seriously. crazy. drown myself in naps after them. but!! i'll nt give up. i will look on e bright side. peak at e right time,so tt i can end up in the best n right place. :)

new inspirations from my mp3. ha.
Dawn is breaking. so smile for me. tell me that you';; wait for me. Hold me like you'll never let me go. coz i'm leaving on a jet plane. dunno when i'll be back again. -Leaving on a jet plane.

random thoughts tt i had. "pen them down"

2006-06-26T13:35:00.000+08:00

i have nv been so attentive when i listen to my mp3. this special day i was. no idea. well. "pen" then down. decided to keep a whole collection of them. i noe one day it'll b useful. :)

If you get there there before i do, don't give up on me. I'll meet you when my chores are through. i don't how long i'll need. But i'm nt gona to let u down. darling wait n see. and Between now and then, till i see you again. i'll be loving you. Love, me.

a new chance.

2006-06-24T01:30:00.001+08:00

ok. well. pinky and yinger, if u are wondering y i'm doin this. i just wana try out the templates. play ard with javascript. so unlike me, especially when i'm an IT idiot right pinky? haha.

Stay tune. love. :)